jealousy
Why do I get so jealous whenever I see my friends so close with each other? Why do I get so jealous at the fact it isn’t me experiencing any of it.
I don’t want to be jealous, I want to be happy for them, and I’m fine with them being close, I really am, I just… I feel like I’m drifting from both of them, and I hate it.
I can’t help but feel bitter because I want what they have, I want the bond they have even though I know I won’t get it. I feel like it’s best to keep it bottled up since I don’t want to hurt anyone… I just feel. Really bad. Very bad for feeling this way.
I just want someone to return all the love I give instead of ignoring me, or giving me half of what I give them.